I always pray to God that he'll tell me what I am suppose to do with my life. I've been talking to God so much lately, which is a wonderful thing, but like a caterpillar ready to come out of it's cocoon, I'm ready to change. My spirit isn't very comfortable right now, and from past experience, I know that God is about to do something crazy with me. Knowing God, crazy is a good thing! I mean, I've been struggling to get a job, struggling to be a pure person and to have a consistent walk of Faith with God. Believe me, this summer, my walk with God has been one giant roller coaster. Up one moment then I'm falling the next, it's tiring! Now.....everything that I've been struggling with....I think God is finally going to put an end to it all.(Note: I'm not suicidal lol) When I say that God is putting an end to my crazy struggles, I mean he's going to put my life on track. I'm not sure what I mean....but last time my spirit was uncomfortable, I went to a conference in Baton Rouge, Louisiana, and my spirit was comfortable again because that conference literally changed everything about me. I truly understood what it meant to fall in love with God. It was love that I never knew about. Even now as I type, I'm remembering that moment when I fell over my head in love with God.

I watch a lot of baby shows when mother's are giving birth. And you can tell that both parents have found a new love that they never knew about. I'm no mother, but from the parents expressions, I know they love that feeling of loving their baby. In a way, that's how I felt with God when I truly fell in loved with Him. It's more than knowing that He died on the Cross for me or that He healed people from their sickness, or any of the great Bible stories. Any one can read the Bible as if it is a book report, but when you actually sit down, and listen to Him and let Him take over your life, you'll begin to find that love that we all thought we never had, His Love. He created me so I have everything that He is, but you'll only have it if you know if it's there. And now, I'm going deeper in myself to fin out that I really do have God's blood in me. I have that overwhelming love that He has for me, which is freaking awesome!

Even my prayer life is almost exciting now. When I first started to pray, I would try to use big words sometimes or I would just pray for very little things, that was when I was a baby believer at the time. Then I started to pray for more things, like food, shelter, for my family, protection. I can honestly say that my prayers are more in dept, but I don't just come to Him for me me me, I praise Him and thank Him. I was even more excited when I began to speak in tongues. These are things I thought I'd never be able to do! Now, my prayer life is amazing. Rather than being afraid to ask him for things and to be open to him, I pray as if He is right next to me, like He's my best friend and I'm talking to Him being totally honest, open, and transparent with Him. And I love that I can talk to the Maker of this World as if He's a person sitting right next to me. Ever since I became more open to him, I'm becoming more and more trusting to Him. Which is what I've been trying to do this whole summer. Now that I'm more comfortable with Him, and I believe He's ready to do something drastic with me.

I can't believe since middle school to after high school what God has done with me. If you were me, you'd understand what I'm coming from. This is from a girl who didn't even think she could understand the Bible at all and is now teaching Sunday school to middle school kids. This from a girl who had the worst self-esteem as child and pre-teen to having the greatest confidence because of God and her confidence is increasingly growing. This from a girl who lost her home of thirteen years to Hurricane Katrina and having had a hard time getting use to San Antonio and is now being blessed everyday because of Lord of the Harvest Church(I love that church as if it is my home!). I'm excited for the plans that God has planned for me because I know that He is about do something with me. What it might be, I have no idea, but I know it's something that will push me deeper into Him and I'll soon know more to Him than ever.



Salvation Prayer

Heavenly Father in the Name of Jesus, I believe what you did on the cross for me and that you made me free from my own sins. I repent from all the sins I've done and welcome and accept your forgiveness and love. I asked that you baptize me in your Holy anointing and help me live the life you've predestined me to live, in Jesus name, Amen.


here r my closets friends to me


and here r clubs im in

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Wow, I haven't updated this journal in centuries lol. I just wanted to say to all my buds out there, though i kinda erased my deviant watch list, but I'll probably end up watching you guys all over again.

God has done so much for me since the end of 2008 and the beginning of 2009, I've changed so much now that I think about it. I don't doubt myself, I look at everything with a positive look, I lost weight(praise God), I'm becoming a leader at church and I even taught my own class already. I feel like I'm just understanding what God has been trying to work in me, but not completely you know. I still have areas in my life that I need to correct and make better. Unfortunately, I haven't been drawing lately because I've been so focused on school since this my last year in high school, but I'll try to be led by God what to draw for his Gospel.

Wow this is a good release to let out, even if no one reads this, I'm glad I'm letting this out on myself. I tend to keep emotions stuck inside so long that I'll explode. I plan to be back on DA but only to promote God's word and his word only(and maybe some other stuff too.)

Salvation Prayer

Heavenly Father in the Name of Jesus, I believe what you did on the cross for me and that you made me free from my own sins. I repent from all the sins I've done and welcome and accept your forgiveness and love. I asked that you baptize me in your Holy anointing and help me live the life you've predestined me to live, in Jesus name, Amen.


here r my closets friends to me


and here r clubs im in

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Hey everybody, i think anyone should watch this video, it really is something......[link]

I really encourage everybody who doesn't have God in their heart to read this prayer:

Heavenly Father who is in Heaven, I know i have made mistakes in the past, i am a sinner and that i have been separated from you, Please forgive me for my sins for i am now ready to renew myself, I know that your son, Jesus, died on the cross for our sins in order to save our lives, I ask now that you come into my heart and send down your Holy Spirit to help me obey your will, In Jesus name i pray, Amen

And if anybody read this or prayed it, you are renewed and you have Jesus in your heart now.


and here r all my buddies(or im just watching)

(please tell me if u r missing)

here r my closets friends to me


and here r clubs im in

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Hi guys, well this has been a great week for me, great start in my senior year in High Skool(09!). Now my week is about to end even greater than ever. Jesus, here I come!


I really encourage everybody who doesn't have God in their heart to read this prayer:

Heavenly Father who is in Heaven, I know i have made mistakes in the past, i am a sinner and that i have been separated from you, Please forgive me for my sins for i am now ready to renew myself, I know that your son, Jesus, died on the cross for our sins in order to save our lives, I ask now that you come into my heart and send down your Holy Spirit to help me obey your will, In Jesus name i pray, Amen

And if anybody read this or prayed it, you are renewed and you have Jesus in your heart now.


and here r all my buddies(or im just watching)

(please tell me if u r missing)

here r my closets friends to me


and here r clubs im in

Welcome to Journal



Hi everyone. I hope anyone who reads this journal will learn something. The word strife means bitter, sometimes violent conflict or dissension. As I can see, DA has a lot of strife going on right now. Not just on DA, but in our personal lives as well. And it's mostly been involved around Christianity and Homosexuals.

Christians aren't God himself, we're the image of Christ. So don't expect Christians to be truly perfect, because we're not, but we strive for perfection until it is time for us to go home with our Heavenly Father. Also, not all Christians are as crazy as some can be, but it's not always a great excuse for anyone to not believe in God because of a religious person. If anyone refuses to believe in God, then we can't do anything about that but pray for them and hope they turn around. Christians are to be Jesus' light because he is the Light of the World. If anyone is even curious about God, then look for him, He is there, waiting patiently for us. He's not a God of Destruction, He's the God of Peace. He wants us to live in harmony with each other, not kill each other with our words.


Now with Homosexuality, yes, God has given the gift to love whoever we want to love, but that can lead us into trouble. We are suppose to love everybody, even our enemies. I always say this, God created Man and Woman to become as one in marriage. Not Man and Man or Woman and Woman to be one in marriage. Living the life of having sex with other sexes and the same sex, or heck, any kind of lust and sexual impurity is sin not just to God, but sin against your own body. I have many friends who are either Bi or Gay, but I told one of my lesbian friends that i would NEVER support Homosexuality because it's a sin and it goes against what I believe. I know some people will be mad at me for this, but this is from me, with every care for anyone who is reading this. Don't be blinded by sin, even if you're in love with the wrong person, it can easily be a huge mistake.


On a personal note for my family on DA, I'm going to be transparent with all of you and I won't say any names. The comics aren't doing anything. It makes you feel better but is this the answers to the problems, no, it's another thing that's making the problem BIGGER. The complain, the insulting, the gossip, it's getting like it's high school all over again. We should use our art for God, not to get at somebody.
as for the other, everybody is struggling right now, you're not the only one. Don't be a reason why the family splits, be a reason why the family is as strong in Christ as we should be. I recall you also said I'm too young and naive to understand things of God, 1 Timothy4:12, I may be the youngest, but I'm not anyone's fool. I do applaud you for getting the Gospel out, but don't stay in one area, not everybody is dealing with the same sin.

I love all of you, we shouldn't be fighting like this. We are God's children and he didn't raise us up to be fighting each other. I'm not the most greatest Christian, but I know when something needs to stop, and this strife needs to STOP. I didn't mean to make like a super long essay, but I had to let this out.

I really encourage everybody who doesn't have God in their heart to read this prayer:

Heavenly Father who is in Heaven, I know i have made mistakes in the past, i am a sinner and that i have been separated from you, Please forgive me for my sins for i am now ready to renew myself, I know that your son, Jesus, died on the cross for our sins in order to save our lives, I ask now that you come into my heart and send down your Holy Spirit to help me obey your will, In Jesus name i pray, Amen

And if anybody read this or prayed it, you are renewed and you have Jesus in your heart now.


and here r all my buddies(or im just watching)

(please tell me if u r missing)

here r my closets friends to me


and here r clubs im in